This past week, the reality of my internship abroad hit me harder than it previously has. The reality of applying for graduate school next semester hit me even harder. I remember jolting awake from sleep the other night and counting the number of months that remain until I have to apply. It’s rather frightening. Sometimes it feels like no matter how hard I work at projects or try to make progress towards things to better me for the graduate school application process next year, I am still so behind. Will I ever feel ahead again? I’ve always been a very schedule/organization oriented person. This constant feeling of uncertainty is a bit of a stab to my normal tendencies.
I decided to write this blog entry today because a) It’s been a while since I’ve just poured non-school related thoughts out into a blog entry and b) because I don’t know how to calm my brain down so I can re-focus my energy on all of the homework I need to complete today. Writing usually helps me organize my thoughts. I’m sure I’ve mentioned it before, organizing my thoughts into some semi-permanent medium is the reason behind my blogging in the first place. I do enjoy it, but everything has some kind of underlying purpose, right?
I digress. The future is coming at me fast. I don’t have a concrete focus on where I’m going, but I know what (for the most part) I want to do. Hopefully things start to settle in their rightful places soon. I need to sleep steady again.